I should

I should study for my last final.

I should go to the gym.

I should stop eating candy.

I should get off facebook.

I should care more about my grades.

I should take a shower.

I should go run some errands I have been meaning to run, but haven't had the time.

I should take my trash out.

I should do some laundry.

I should return some phone calls.

There you go. Ten things that I SHOULD do, but I'm not. Why? Because I am dead. I don't want to do anything. I have absolutely no motivation to be prepared for my last final. I have no motivation to go workout or get anything done that I have been meaning to get done. Sometimes you just need to sit. Not think about anything or anyone and just sit. I think that it is okay to sometimes not run around with your head cut off and just enjoy life for a second. Embrace silence. I have seriously felt like I have been running around with my head cut off for about six weeks. I am turning into one of those people I HATE. The kind of person that is so busy that they don't have time for anyone, because they are just trying to fit everything in. The kind of person that doesn't return calls or texts or the kind of person that bails the last minute. I really hate those people. But I can't help it! Obviously, I have some spare time, because I write blog posts or get on facebook. But that is MY time. I talk to people all day everyday. Sometimes I just need to be by myself and not talk to anyone. I really don't know how I am going to be a mom.

Okay story time! So I looked at my grades and in one class I have a 92.3%. A 93% is an A. I absolutely HATE that I am .7% away from getting an A. I have gotten A's on every test, paper, and quiz. So why am I at an A-? Participation points. The dumbest thing in all of college. If I know the material enough to gets A's on tests and papers, then why do I need to be in class? Because teachers are idiots, that's why! So I figured I had nothing to lose by emailing my teacher and asking if there was ANYTHING that I could do to get that extra .7% to raise my grade. She emailed back somewhat angry, but told me to call her. So I called her and made an appointment to meet. She agreed to meet me later on and came back to her office from being at home to meet with me. Sounds like she is going to help me out right? WRONG. She told me that she didn't feel comfortable, because it was my fault I didn't go to class or take advantage of the extra credit. Ew. I was really sad. But, I will get over it and I will get an A in all my classes next semester. Mark my words!

Sorry for the long posts and lack of pictures. I am sure there will be more pictures when the springtime comes and I look tan and skinny again instead of white and chubby.